The End

will every thing end soon
will every one just leave me alone
will anyone even understand me
will anyone stands with me or up with me
will anybody care for what i feel
will anyone bother him/herself to ask about me
will anyone even think that am suffering of lots
but no one see this cuz i keep smiling
cuz i dont want people to know
but they keep on just hurting me
and balming me for everything
is it cuz am the good one always
is it cuz i always forgive everyone
and dont blame them for anything
is it cuz they think i am the one who can handel everything
as they see me the one who's holding the world on my shoulders
i never nag on anything they do that bothers me
i keep it all inside my heart as sorrows
they just dont see this
they see nothing they know nothing
all they want is them to be happy
they dont care for others feelings
its just me who is to be blame when sth goes wrong
its just me the one 2 be blamed if i do sth out of control
i am in a black hole i dont know what to do
i dont know what will happen next
i actually dont know if there is ppl out there who even cares 4 me
i am not sure anymore if i do have friends
i am not sure if anyone even care for what i feel
i feel like hell but never say
i keep everything inside so not to make anyone feel guilty
or make them sad or ruien anyones day
its always me who's good
this is me i cant change
i like being the good one
but i hate being good and no one appretiates it
well i guess this is it this is life
i can do nothing anymore
i'v always fighted over things 2 be better
i'v always tried to make everybody happy
i'v always been there for my friends
when ever they wanted me
i'v lsn to them talked and comforted them
but got nth in return
am not asking for anything in return
cuz i give and never wait to get
but all am asking is to leave me alone
i'v got lots of things in my head,,,my heart
i feel like a bomb which will just blow in any min
and i dont want to blow out infront of anyone
and hurt them
thats why i want to be left alone
please if i hurted anyone by anyway
am asking for them to forgive me
and i promise that i will never hurt them again
cuz i will be leaving their life
hope it will be for good
now good bye
byee
byeee

Until When

until when am i going to keep waiting for you

until when am i going to keep forgiving you

tell me until when am i always going to be good

until when am i going to suffer from things you do

tell me why you do this why you keep hurting me

you lied about your feelings

you didnt always mean what u said....

whenever we get close suddenly everything vanishes

I wonder why all this happens,i know why....

but after it vanishes it rises again

and better than before,but it doesnt stay long

is it that you like to hurt me

does it just make you feel good

becuase you know that i love you

and will always forgive you and never forget you

is it because of that....

well dear this time this is whats going to vanish

my feeling will vanish becuse you hurt me deep

my soul is in deep sorrow crying

not crying becuase of you

but crying on me

telling me you'v been too good

you loved him alot

he doesnt even deserve it

but i keep forgiving you

hoping we will be together one day and forever

but it seems hopeless, cuz you love her

i dont know if she deserve your love

but all i wish for you is to be happy

and wish that she will make you happy

if this is what you want

i will give up on you

you had lots of chances

days and years have passed

and nothing changed

it only kept repeating its self

so its the time now for me to leave

i know that i will leave my prints every where

and i dont regret anything and i will never regret it

you'v been my everything...

but this is Gods well now

i guess its time for my heart to say good bye

but not forever because you'll be my dearest one

whom i like to talk and share everything with

all i hope now

that we will be there for each other forever

remember this always and never forget it

this is our destiny and i have to accept it as it is

i am not sure if this is the end

but i hope that we will be able to make the right decession at the end.....

i will always love you and till the end....